The Cherry

The cherry that pops

The emotions that doesn’t stop

I’ve been told it’s all at a drop

A drop of losing a special thing

Something that hold you and mold you

You lose it whenever, wherever at a moment’s notice

It’s sweet like cherry pie

So today I think I’ll keep mine

Flat Stanley

Flat Stanley

That’s who I wish to be

The hurt and pain I feel in my stomach

It’s a hurt I must endure

The hunger and the thirst is something I must ignore

Day by Day I fade away

Hoping I will be no more

Until there is nothing to see

Nothing to be

And that’s just it’s nothing I will eat

To Understand Each Others Love

The one thing that we should all know about love is that it’s confusing sometime and you don’t know if you’re doing the right thing to show your love.


However, one thing is for sure you guys understand each other’s language the way you talk to the way you walk and that’s how you may determine what to do next. By looking and feeling the energy of your spouse you can know how to motivate them or get them comfortable for a cuddle session. Either way you know each-other and that’s great for a relationship.


One thing I thought about is could I have a relationship where the other person understands my toothpaste talk, while others just hear noise they actually hear me speak. I don’t know what I thought about it but it sounds nice.

My First GAY PRIDE !!!

So yesterday was one of the best times of my life as I went to MY FIRST PRIDE! It was so insightful and also thrilling, the person I was when I went in was not the same i was when I left out. Whether it be the experience that I had or the fact that I swam in a pond that was grey. Whatever it was I still had a great time. This social events give us a chance to contact with people who you had no idea exist, to see people that had to deal with the same burden of coming out to their loved ones as you did. And there this adventure you come together with jello shot, dance parties, beads, and a lot of sexy men wearing barely any clothes.

Now as I walked there the crowd I did see some interesting things like people popping their butts in a dance that I could only think about doing or people making out when I’m a little scared to touch the person whom I’m supposed to be in a relationship with. All I can say it that Pride is an experience itself! Nevertheless I still have a thought that straight boys come to Pride to either see what it means to be gay, which is ok, or to tease us with their hot bodies, which is ok too.


So what I say to you is if you ever get a chance to go to Pride in whatever city or state take chance you won’t regret.


A Black Man’s Barber

One thing that I can never live without is my barber in my life, yes I’ve had many but it’s only because I’ve move around. It wasn’t until I got older did I realize that the person cutting my hair, cleaning up my tapeline, and making me look fly on my first day of school is part of my family. This person whomever they were would talk to you about anything; sport, music, and even comedy. The place that people come do maybe twice a month is also a place to rant about life struggles and things you can’t believe happened. So if you’re feeling stress and your hair is a mess check out your nearest barber shop and let me know what happens.  

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

Hey people so its Elijah here and right know I’m having one of the biggest dilemmas in my life. So, one hand I work at a movie theatre and although the people I work with are amazing its the guest that really get on my nerves with their request and their stupid questions. Sometime I want to cuss them out and sometime I just want to quit and  find a new job, but the things is that if I found a new job I could work at a place where i didn’t have to worry about uber or even taking a bus because its literally up the street. The only thing that i am most worried about the money; You see I got bills to pay and food that I need to eat and part of me is not sure about taking that leap. Half of me is like yes go ahead and do it but the other half is like you have something good going why mess it up know.

Truly I don’t know and the fact that they are offering a promotion and I could get it makes me want to stay more, but i don’t think my mindset is there, but how do I know my mindset is going to be good anywhere. So we’ll see what happens in the future.

Strange Moments #1

The moment when you ask yourself why, what happened, when did this happen that just such strange things could happen in this house. I mean it happened and here I am a thirst bottom or top thats seeking an adventure but are constantly past by me as I wonder where my life has gone.

Ongoing it will start and who knows when it will stop, who knows when the urge will be complete, who knows when I will be at peace.

I am vulnerable and I know that sometime people have needs but when will these things stop. When will I believe in my heart what I am doing can and will complete me.I guess I won’t know until the circle of life is almost over, which I don’t plan on seeing for a very long time.

But what happens next am I going to be petty a hold my emotion grow until bad things start to happen or should I be myself and spawn a new fruit. The truth is that the truth has passed me by I feel weak I really let me guard down, so straight guys could maybe turn into something else and that would maybe change something. Its because in the back of my head I know i’ll be somewhat at peace if I know i have achieved human connection that is wonderful and inspiring.

But till then we’ll wait and hope for angel to come and make happiness a thing.

Days of 2017

So its 2017 and I know we are already to get to those resolutions and stick to them, but lets be honest how long it is going to last.

If you can’t see yourself doing it or stopping it by October then whats the point. I believe that this is the year of release not just for me but for everyone. In order to do something you have to be brave, you have to want to do it for yourself and no one can do that for you.

Motivation is something that we all need so why not use it. If your running and you need to think that a donut is going to be at the end then think that, but BEWARE OF THE DONUT.

Encourage yourself and be brave with anything that you do.

Don’t mind what others say about your goals because they don’t know you. So you have to do what you have to do in order to be SUCCESSFUL.

When Do You Know?

So my question today is when do you know? When do you know that what you are doing is right, when do you know that this decision. So you made a bold move and this move, this move  that you thought about day in and day out it keeps coming to you. Are you making the best decision are you making a decision that you think would benefit you. But benefiting you is good right or are you just benefiting yourself so that you don’t hurt others. Well you know what I saw do what you believe in think about it and think never move on a decision that you haven’t thought of. And if its a real decision that can change your life then it will hurt and it will be hard to continue on the course, but you have to WILL to continue with your mind and know what you are doing is right. Pray, think, and think some more and really decide what best for you and not for those around. Sorry to say but that is true, so ask yourself when do you know whats best for you.